Aloha, Sisters of Strength!
I don't talk about this publicly...
...but ever since smashing my skull on the pavement a few years ago (and basically being left there to die), I've been experiencing panic, claustrophobia and anxiety attacks of varying degrees...
I was told this is normal after that kind of injury but --- if you've ever experienced one of those attacks --- you know that when it's bad.... it. is. BAD.
Like wanting to come out of your skin.
Like wanting to throw yourself out of a window rather than deal with ineffable emotions that begin to consume you in an attack.
Like vomiting non-stop.
Like thinking you're having a heartattack and going insane.
Like a complete disassociation from others.
Like thinking you can't keep it together in a public place.
It's a tsunami of internal terror like I've never experienced.
Why am I telling you this?
Because I had to get to the bottom of it. I know when I'm low on B6, magnesium, sleep and sound nutrition these attacks get triggered more easily.
I know the excess progesterone and being peri-menopausal doesn't help.
But how do I handle the attack when I'm crushed in its grip?
It wasn't until today's guest author, Kirin Gopal Kaur, taught me a few breathing techniques (among other things) from her Kundalini practice
-- all via Skype, email --
...that I've been able to squash these attacks once I recognize them starting.
I am hoping that if any of you out there experience these same things, you can find help with Kirin Gopal Kaur's techniques...
It's hard to explain how incredibly frightening it is to someone who's never experienced it...
but please know there's a lot you can do to help yourself.
With that, I give you today's guest author, Kirin Gopal Kaur, on journeys, sacrifice and tapping into your own internal power.
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You are not a damsel in distress. Be the hero of your story.
Kirin Gopal Kaur
It Wasn't Until Everything Fell Apart
A few months ago, I was driving in Southern Utah through the Grand Staircase-Escalante National Monument. I was on my way to a retreat where I was going to work on a novel I’ve been trying to finish. It was early morning and I rounded a corner in the park and my jaw dropped as I saw through my windshield the most incredible expanse of canyons lying before me. Bright orange and beige sandy canyon after canyon after canyon. I’d never seen anything like it. I pulled over, got out of my car, and stood at the lip of the deep chasm and was overcome with wonder, awe, grace. Time stood still. Time had no meaning. What was had been, and would always be. And at that moment I was filled with this deep knowing that my book would be done. That I had to keep going and finish it.
This same feeling of timelessness, expansiveness and possibility is something I experience every time I take a Kundalini class. Kundalini Yoga is known as “the yoga of awareness.” It’s a sacred science that combines meditation, mantra, physical exercises and breathing techniques to awaken the dormant Kundalini energy inside all of us, allowing us to break through our blocks, heal and release trauma, and experience our true essence.
I spent most of my life caught up in SEEMING to be versus BEING who I truly am. Having been raised in the Mormon Church, God (as I knew him) was vengeful and punishing and I grew up with a strong voice in my head, rooted in shame, that told me I was “bad.” I tried to control my way through life and it wasn’t until my marriage ended and everything fell apart that I started down a new path.
I took my first Kundalini class about six years ago on a whim and instantly fell in love with the practice. The way my body and mind responded, it’s as if I “knew” it already. Ultimately, Kundalini Yoga has helped me lose the sense of needing to change myself (and other people for that matter!). It’s taught me to trust that I can access wisdom that’s already a part of me from a deep, neutral quiet deep place inside.
In practical terms, Kundalini also strengthens the nervous and immune systems, balances emotions, increases energy, reduces stress and orients consciousness to create happiness and health.
Transformations require courage and sacrifice; there is no substitute for simply putting one foot in front of the other. Along the way we encounter weakness, discouragement, exhaustion, anger, frustration and confusion. But we also find acceptance, peace, and joy. Kundalini can be an incredible tool to navigate these changes.
If you’re curious about tapping into the energy that exists beyond your physical body, beyond your limiting beliefs, beyond your tricky mind, I would love to introduce you to this powerful practice.
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Remember: Everything you want or need is already within you.